I was diagnose by Bipolar Disorder at the age of 25 and before that I thought that living with depression, hyperactivity and mood swings was totally normal.
I went to cure with different Doctors and medicines but nothing seemed to change the horrible perception I had of life.
I felt pain in everything i was doing and I just had few frames of fake happiness.
My father’s grief was the worse time I ever had. The strange thing was the sad connection I started to have with death. I was not ready for it and I was angry with it.
Time passed and at the age of 34 I decided to do something different, it was my time to heal my pain and feel free from my demons.
I went for a hike in Scotland, I’ve done 96 miles in 7 days through the Highlands. It was just me the nature and my demons.
It was the time for me to question myself and have an honest talk with Mother Nature.
A deep emotion touched me when I realise I was breathing freedom and no more pain. My legs were touching the wet ground. I was hurting the land that was bleeding water. "Why am I always in pain? Why I should suffer from my own life?" A gentle breeze whispered: "Believe in you. Trust in you. Believe in me. Trust in me. Release who you are and embrace your future." A lighter sensation punched my guts, I am not blind, I can see the world, I can believe in people, I can trust me, I can't hurt myself I have to love who I am. The pain was gone, Suffer ran away and all was beauty and calmness. The storm was gone And I was dancing in the Aura of my future. I am my own reason. I am my own choice. I am the silence in a world full of pain.
As much is difficult to live with your demons, fight them with your strength and power. Believe always in yourself.
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