I have decided to take a change 
and come back to live in the place 
that killed me most of my time. 

A country in which I will always be an 
Immigrant. 

I’ve lived the last 2 years with a terrible 
sense of pain, and a hard confusion 
misting my daily life. 

I feel like a ghost here, in search 
Of something or maybe nothing. 

Life seemed ok until the day 
I realised , that is not what 
I was searching for. 

Ordinary has been always my fear 
and routine keep shooting my muscles, 
making me weak and useless 
to myself. 

The life I am living now is 
demotivating and less inspiring than before. 

I thought that settle a new path 
would open new doors in my mind. 

But the feeling is different. 
All is shut and dark as never 
been before . 

I am depressed in the country 
That grow me up, I am living anxiety 
worse that before, the ocean is around me 
I am close to drown. 

I can’t see many options, 
or new paths to take this time. 

I feel a heavy weight attaching me to the ground 
and my body is breaking trying to get rid of it. 

I sometime think that people and world would 
Wait my responses and my need to evolve in 
A future vision of me.

writers inspiration: The political situation I live in the country I live where all is about discrimination and corruption

Jude St Jude is a young voice of a contemporary world. His first work is words/wars, a poems book about the sufferance in depression, anxiety and self destruction. With this work he explore mental health giving the power to everyone that struggle with mental disorders to find hope. His language is poetry, that exorcise the demon that everyone has inside. You can find him on Twitter @jsaintjude